Stories on a Swing

I could’ve sworn his great youth was slowly swirling,

Right in front of his hazy eyes, behind his big glasses,

In that confined space,

He talked with an unchallenged certainty,

and I recalled,

His wisdom was something that needed succession......

I wasn’t listening much,

Another burst of stories in limited time, said my little heart, SAD!

For he had no one in this world, I decided to stay,

I stared at him, sitting on the old swing,

Trying to feel his words as they lined across him,

One by one,

And each, bearing years worth of his life.

On that fine afternoon,

He told me the stories of his life,

and I quite liked it.

Dedicated to one of my patients, who died last friday at Homerton Hospital.

Mr PW, RIP

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by Dr. Chronic~ ~ Sunday 10 January 2010 1 comments

Regrets,

To the guy whom I stumbled upon on my way out of the sphinx,

standing against a giant block, selling some travel books,

GOD BLESS YOU,

For I have been rude to you,

Having FUN, haggling down the price to my knees,

For your time and courage I have wasted,

And for your hopes I might have shattered.

I am sorry.

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To the small kids on the streets, selling postcard I didn’t buy,

And to anyone who has helped, I didn’t tip or say thanks to,

May Allah reward your good deeds, and shine a light into your lives,

For a much brighter future, amen!

Yours sincerely,

The selfish and ignorant!

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by Dr. Chronic~ ~ Saturday 9 January 2010 2 comments

Snow flurries.

I received an email last Wednesday from the medical school, about the current snowy weather in London and how it might have an impact on the teaching at various placements. Last year, the transports were completely crippled down by the snow storm, preventing millions from getting into their workplaces and yeah... we snowed in for 2 days! Good stuff!

Back to the email....some people apparently were happy and so lived up to the possibility of time off from work but I was on the other hand, realistically felt completely the opposite. May be it was New year! They seemed neurotic with a sudden workload after a long Christmas break and with the idea of getting back into old routines, thus anticipating more holidays! Yea makes sense!

I mean... Heyyyyyyy the snow did not even settle on the ground and busses, trains whatsoever were running on time.. Why were you fussing about holidays??? I didn’t get it! you were just making false hopes and I vividly remembered on Thursday morning, many were disappointed.. SAD :(

I’m just into my work at the moment; my Health Care of the Elderly (HCOE) placement has been really great!! I’m more convinced now that I have made the right choice! another 15 months before the MBBS final, and i'm looking forward for my medical elective (A&E and trauma) in Australia! yehooo.

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by Dr. Chronic~ ~ 2 comments

Nearly there....

I'm tired of this dragging feelings..............
It has been almost a year, but I can't seem to get over it, sad!
I HATE seeing myself this WEAK!


Dear me,
You are not the **** after all.. YOU ARE NOT!
Suck it up and move on dude...

yeah FUCKING MOVE ON!!
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II

Congrats to my sis on her engagement day, on the last Dec 26, I was in Egypt that time, but surely gonna be home for her wedding! It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life kan haha.. you'll be in my prayers...

Forget about the past sis, after 9 great years of unwavering relationship, it's definitely not easy. I know the wound's too deep that It'd definitely scar even after it heals.. We've long come to term that He decides everything. YOU JUST DESERVED SOMEONE BETTER and for that congrats again! as you have made the right choice.


Love does not consist of gazing at each other, but in looking together in the same direction.....
and my younger sis plak, she brought home her new BF .... chisss!!! yea as long as u're happy! =p

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by Dr. Chronic~ ~ Monday 4 January 2010 0 comments

2010

I just came back from Egypt and currently down with a mild fever.. blame the harsh cold weather in London i guess, in contrast to hot and dusty Egypt. The trip was truly a blast but yeah that's another PERSONAL entry.=p
we are starting off a brand new decade today! but the soul I'm bringing in seems lifeless.Well it really feels like any other day. The only difference is that, all of a sudden, everyone becomes so eager and ambitious about things to be accomplished and improved in their lives, thus making resolution sounds really cliche at this time. It's a world's culture and I kinda feel the same to be honest. As there is nothing to lose, It's a brand new day to begin with! i think, It should be a good start.

As for 2010.. I'm hoping for a more prosperous year! *clean*( I mean it) =p and productive!..

• Medic's no doubt would be my ultimate priority! I'm absolutely ready to work my ass off! whatever it takes man!! I hope to improve the amount of background reading in every rotation, to complete my dissertation ON TIME! and to start preparing for final as soon as the easter break commences! (@@). + to definitely pass my MBBS part IV exams with flying colors, insyaAllah.
  
• I'm completely indecisive about the MTAS application, as for now I'm just NOT ready to go home. To stay or not to.... a lot of things go in between, be it my family, myself and most importantly my future life; where am i going to end up? and with whom? They used to be so clear but now everything seems so obscured. :( After all, He's the one who decides the best for me, and for that I will constantly pray for his guidance. .....but perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah knows, while you know not. 2:216.
  
• This stony heart is in need of immediate lithotripsy. I've lost terribly in the previous battles and in the search of a brighter path, I'm willing to sacrifice! I'm pretty sure the journey I'm going through will never be smooth and easy, the ups and downs; with all my heart I am all up for it! Hoping to be a much better servant to Him; the Almighty. InsyaAllah.
• A better son and brother to both my parents and other siblings. Some restrictions have to be added on my IND. license hehe=p.
• I'm not a chavs but i think my social life has really been down the drain. Not that I'm complaining but sometimes being just around the closed ones, it eventually trumps the whole intention of socializing. I'm not aiming of a fan page, *slap! but one or two would do the trick. BEING NICE TO PEOPLE, is what I'm tryin' to say y'all. haha
• At this age, the L sounds very appealing! I hope for a better luck=p. I promise, NO MORE stupid mistakes.

I'm trying to be realistic this time as in the past I have learned that my optimisms tuned out just to be merely repetition of hardly-broken old habits. sad! I'm wishing everyone in the world a very happy new year! Good luck!

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by Dr. Chronic~ ~ Friday 1 January 2010 0 comments