static! thus so I am.....

The Man who can't be moved!

going back to the corner where I first saw you
gonna camp in my sleeping bag i'm not gonna move
got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
saying, "If you see this girl, can you tell her where I am?"

some try to hand me money. they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken-hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do?
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you?

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this Earth I could be
Thinkin' maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman said, "Son, you can't stay here"
I said "There's someone I'm waiting for, if it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind, this is the first place she will go

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this Earth I could be
Thinkin' maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I'm not moving, I'm not moving
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy who's waiting on a girl
Whooaahoo..
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world
Whooaahoo..

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news
You'll come running to the corner
'cause you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
(Find you're missing me)
And your heart starts to wonder where on this Earth I could be
(Oh, where on earth I could be?)
Thinkin' maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
(To the place that we'd meet, ohhh)
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
(On the corner of the street)
I'm the man who can't be moved

So I'm not moving
('Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me)
I'm not moving
(And your heart starts to wonder where on this Earth I could be)
I'm not moving
(Thinkin' maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet)
I'm not moving
(And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag. I'm not gonna move


~ Saturday 19 December 2009 4 comments

Priority!






Thank god!

They finally reinstated the payment plan and removed my name from the eviction list!!
Next time, it'd be the first thing every month!
____________________________________________________________________

It was definitely a wake up call!
for a last-minute, too laid-back kind of guy like me.....
________________________________________________________

There are just things in this life that we have to take really seriously!
I mean, really fucking work on it!!

grrrrr.




~ Sunday 6 December 2009 0 comments

I don't mind working my ass off!

Go for it!!
I know you can do it...
!!


but why aiming for flying BIRDS in the sky where He can have many CHICKENS or MICE on the ground???

He wasn't too ambitious but,
that's what it takes to make ALL the difference..........

"Anything that's worth having,
Is sure enough worth fighting for."

~ Friday 4 December 2009 0 comments

OptiOns....

Like I said....
there are plenty of fish in the sea....




yea ....you are right...
but those are guppies =p

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aRe yOu HapPpy?


errrmmm what's going on???
what?? I thought we re going to a movie?


yeaa I mean.... things we're doing now.. about us or... between us?

chuckles* errmm I don't know, and i don't really care.. as long as i'm happy..
.Are you happy??

yea... I am.. certainly!





Not everything in this life has to be labelled... If you are happy.. then just get on with it!!

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multiple orgasms!!

Arghhhh!!!

click here

she's so naughty!
probably one of the best shagsssssss!!




~ Sunday 29 November 2009 0 comments

I may not just flinch next time!


If you think, in any way that i've stepped on your toes! then I'm so sorrryyyy.....
but i definitely did not deserve a "bitch" on someone's wall, whereas i just wrote a "lipstick" on yours that lasted for a couple of minutes... WTH!

U were so sEXCITED when the other guy tweet-ed as such! but u abruptly became a fat mad cow when i did that! it's unfair...I know it's bloody uneasy to know someone of not really your crowd, has invaded your dark little secret...but well, i should correct myself that i didn't infrinch your privacy but it came to me "leisurely" without me looking for it! clear?

Hey listen! you should have said it to my face if you were disgruntled, rather than waiting for an opportunity to burst publicly and you apparently involved many pepople!! for god's sake, it's not a big deal lady! no one would understand "playing with lipstick'?? what the hell is that?? were u menorrhagic or something? yeah I guess so!...u know what.?? I could have written something nasty, and really trashed ur dignity in no time!!. "pleasuring yourself with vibrating lipstick" doesn't sound nice, isn't it? common sense!

I defined the limits very well even though i still have one bloody unsettled issue with you! but....
I WARN YOU....

Don't u dare to touch me again.....I may not just flinch next time!!!


p/s: tulis time marah :( I actually have NOTHING against you pon... no worries=p





~ 0 comments

Lingerie scents!

He said thank you,

and she said no problem......



At least that was allowed.

In silence, more was offered than what was bargained.......

That of what was hers, in exchange for what was his.

But he said thank you.

And she said no problem.


=p

~ Monday 16 November 2009 0 comments

I don't pick up hints!

I received a private msg on frenster this morning, from someone i have known very well, since we were kids, it says....

"I just can't make everyone feel special! BUT the one I want to is so OBLIVIOUS!"

If happen u read this entry, I'm so sorry as I have no time to dwell into this..... I've wasted too much time infatuating and fighting for love I didn't really deserve in the past...n some just didn't seem to work, n failed miserably!
I can say, my heart's now spaceless for another try.....

Let the pic do the talking =p

~ Sunday 1 November 2009 0 comments

For god's sake! FAT people should be taxed acc to their BMIs for wasting the NHS money! No??

make it simple, let the title do the talking! I posted it up on my FB as soon as I came back from Hospital, after a long tiring neuro day..couple of minutes later,one of the finalists commented on it, saying " I'm a FAT-ist", in which I think he was completely wrong!.. I don't have any issue with the fatso lol..but yeah sometimes, we just have to make harsh decision to harsh people, who had misued the luxury of "medical services" in the country... No?

later during the day, I was quite flabbergasted to receive another comment from a RELIGIOUS local friend. He, who sells himself as a preacher, and has been so polite and humble in his speech all this while,suddenly wrote a nasty comment on my WALL!

(@@) commented on your status
International students should not be allowed to come to our universities and take up places that could have been used for our students (thats not very nice is it brother)

Huh!! pple can become quite despicable in no time! dont u think so?? I was just mad,so close to lose my poise!! it took me quite a while to figure out the "appropriate" answer, in a way that the whole world won't go against me!! but being me for nearly 23 years,I just couldn't hold the loath back!

NICE try at few first lines though..

me =)
cool bro,I'm not serious abt it, My team this morning was fussing abt an article published in "The times" about FAT TAX!! simply taxing obesed people according to their BMIs esp those who r repulsive about changing their lifestyle! diets etc.. well for me.. y NOT?? the smokers had been suffred so much from burgeoning taxes evry yer, why can't we do. the same to those stubborn fatso?? may be NOT MUCH..cple of pennies just to make them AWARE!

WELL, u racist! do not complaint about us taking up places, in UR UNI u insist..!who cares?? THE best man wins after all!! I dont think u need a lecture on that=p

bestnye lepas geram! serious puas ok!! and minutes later, he came again.

(@@) commented on your status.
"bro, u know i didnt mean it, nor do i believe it. I was just pointing out, how these kind of ideas can go a bit too far. Its always easy for these idiots to try to cure the illness, but never to prevent it. Lets tax the fat people, but at the same time, close down parks etc. for kids to play in, not make legislation to ban fatty additives to food, and not subsidise vegetable prices for poorer people.....which are all solutions. Thats the point i was trying to make."

HE was making up! that's it! I'm not that foolish to be swindled but yeah I shall applaud for his nice try of siding me!!

I'm not proud of being outspoken, in fact i always have this profound guilt in me evrytime I lose my temper and smack on people!

He's forgiven, nuff said!

PEACE!

~ Tuesday 13 October 2009 0 comments

The torment....

It was DEVASTATING!! The worst feeling I’ve ever had so far!!

I walked back and forth, aimlessly! Until my sis noticed me being like one of those strayed lunatics!

Thank god! she didn’t ask me anything about the sudden change!

I knew that my face could not LIE; so that I switched off the lamp,

And in the darkness of that very night!!

I CRIED my heart out silently!! until I dried in that long sleepless night....


The following couple of days were completely deserted... I had nothing in minds BUT ceaseless, debilitating worries... I became rebellious intermittently with my superficial faith guarded me in between... HELL!! I’ve never been pushed way too far to this edge!!


One morning, I was totally annoyed with a phone call from an unidentified number, as it woke me up from sleeping!! I was heavily “menorrhagic”, completely not in a good mood! =p The voice sounded very familiar.. the way she greeted me and all gave me a sense of de javu and yes apparently it turned out to be her...


That was my first attempt to express myself after a week of holding “it” back!! Not even my closet blood kin knew about it BUT I happened to throne my trust to her... All I can say, the half an hour long conversation was definitely worthwhile and she did console me down.. I was so much relieved and felt so grateful for having her close, around. FOR the time she spent, and for the thoughts she put in me! Thank you very much! She brought me off the edge, and yeah I finally survived!


She said, “Everything happens for a reason! BUT we just can’t figure out His plans at this moment as it’s just beyond our jurisdiction” This is a definite test of FAITH!! Just believe that every dark cloud has its silver lining, He wouldn’t give you this test if you were incapable of handling it and I’m pretty sure you’ll be doing just fine”


A month later, I learned that what she said to me about “having faith in Him” was absolutely right!

The prayers and the cries... No doubt about it!


Thank you Allah for your mercy


salam

18th july 2009


~ Tuesday 29 September 2009 3 comments

congrats!!

Alhamdullilah..

I passed my third year final exams!!
you're now officially a 4th year medic

YEHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!


~ Wednesday 8 July 2009 1 comments

Keep it low...

Exams are in a week time!!
I still have a stack of handouts to go through!!
I'm speeding up...

I profoundly believe it's gonna be fine!
BUT I don't want this confidence jeopardises me again..


wise people don't fall twice at the same place=p

keep it low......

~ Wednesday 17 June 2009 0 comments

Silence offers you more than you bargained for...


I personally believe that all people need space in between "intimacies" and that plausibly explains why the mars are pulling away acutely sometimes, encaving themselves and opting for a temporary social isolation.. we definitely NEED TIME to recharge ourselves!! thinking of solutions if we have problems, and most importanly giving time for the wounds to HEAL... so that we can start FRESH, all over again!!..

I also have this nature of reclusing myself, being solitary and not gregarious, in occasions where problems consume a lot of my time!!.. It usually revolves around friendships with oddballs!! who do weird things, that u can't simply see the attraction of!! ouhh whatver!!...

I always ended up being so HOSTILE.. I knowwwwwwwww!!.. it's not a good thing.. BUT that's how i adapt.. giving me more personal, private time to think of the solutions and most importantly to compose myself down!!

Don't worry much if it takes too long! as i'll definitely make a come back!! BUT i demand a mutual respect and understanding.. I'm just being firm with my principles!

I believe, silence offers you more than you bargained for"



16.06.09, 17:08





~ 1 comments

Take it slower...

Do you run through each day On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
take it slower~

Ever told your friend,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short. The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift..
Thrown away.

Life is not a RACE
Do take it SLOWER
Hear the music
Before the song is over...................

~ Saturday 6 June 2009 1 comments

a good start!

3 strikes in a row!! (a turkey) and then 2 gutters! i was the model of inconsistency!!
Last tuesday nevertheless marked a new history in my career as an amateur bowler! *career katenye*!! haha.. one of my wildest dreams apart from being a writer! =P

I played 3 games and i knocked down 199 pins in the 2nd one! i was very much impressed with myself for the new record...

136, 199, 157 overall, It was a good start!!

~ Saturday 9 May 2009 0 comments

He paid me cash!

In the years of prophecy, the history has revealed that He sent a race of TINY birds (ababil) to destroy the army of elephants! and today He sent me a gentle, white dove to remind me of his existence, the king of the whole universe, Ya Rabbul Jalil!! It was really a tight smack on my face, and a wake up call for not remembering him whole-heartedly!!

It was a lovely, sunny wednesday afternoon that me and my friends walked to a park to have a lunch picnic!! We seated in a circle of 7 under a massive linden tree, a canopy that shaded us from the bright sunlight!! The mid spring breeze was surprisingly a bit cilly though.. Not far from us were a flock of pigeons, pecking on the grounds, and a couple of white men with shades on, laying topless on the green grass!!

While gobbling down the foods, One of my friends was telling me a story about a lady in a queue for a bus at Liverpool street station.. A pigeon flew above her and dropped a fluidy crap on her head, and face!!.. Evryone was laughing mildly at the story, trying to be emphatic!! BUT i was on the other hand laughing my ass off like HELL!! nearly to the brink of a tummy cramps!!

Suddenly i felt, something was dropping on my shirt!! My friends were all acutely silent in awed and focused on me! then and I stopped laughing!! looking at my chest, There were hardly no words to describe my feelings to see two drops of bird's crap on my shirt!! OMG

My friends were all laughing uncontrollably! leaving me alone with tissues to clean up the mess!! to be honest! i dont mind the crap! even if it's dropped on my face!! it's the msg that HE the Almighty sent to me matters the most!

It was THE BEST LESSON I'VE EVER HAD IN 23 years!! perhaps a lesson of life!!
and it was from a pigeon!!



salam



~ Friday 8 May 2009 0 comments

I lose without a fight!!


A simple, decent message from her early this morning was a STORM i couldn't handle...
It's literally taking morphine orally to relief pain... u know how it tastes!!

Araid to be alone is a rather absurd reason! Stupid really!! may b i wasn't convincing enough for her to provide the warmth of a relationship..now i really understand that good friends are not meant to be together!! that's y I always ended up sucking repellent instead of her blood!!

giving me hopes and possibilities was her fine way of rejecting!! *clap* y didn't I understand that simple msg?? y did i keep myself blind?? I knew this gonna happen at the very first instance, the feeling came about...I'd been living with too much of unrealistic hopes and undeserved infatuation!! what a waste of time!!.. She was right... the best man wins!! and i was not the guy after all..

it's alright!!

NO it's not..

I can't accept the fact that I lose without a fight!!!
what a shame~



~ Tuesday 28 April 2009 1 comments

Clashes of interest and personality!!

It has been a gruelling challenge for me to find someone who shares the same interests!! most of the times, i find myself suffer from the torment of inner battle just for the sake of accomodating people..It has always been me who gives in to entertain their needs!! BUT sadly at the same time leaving my interests unpursued!! it's completely exhausting and uneasy!! HELL i'm struggling.....

Some people are just plainly self-centered and selfish i'd say!! it's so unfortunate to have experienced much of these people!! n being around them still.. in a totally deserted population is somewhat a torture for a "malleable" person like me.. I bend in many possible ways to interlock ..what option do I have???

I should blame my personality for not having the gut to deny people!! Knowing me for nearly 23 years.. i hardly say NO.. it's rude!! it's been my patience and forgiveness that compromise things!! bt sadly my crave for a mutual response has never been satisfied!! i don't deserve this!! Today,, i was disgruntled again!! and realized that my heart is now spaceless for another try...

It's time for me to be firm with what i wanted in life!! being unhappy for other people's happiness is BULLSHIT!! do it on selected pple may be =P life is too short, i just want to be with people whom i enjoyed to be with...or y not being independant??? yess y not??



ok la esok pi main bowling sorang2 =( haha




~ Monday 20 April 2009 1 comments