It will grow inside you, if you let it.

It will grow inside you, if you let it.

by Dr. Chronic~ ~ Friday 19 March 2010

when I was young (i can't really say that now :)) i had this strange inflated sense of emotionless-ness when it came to saying goodbye to people. I could easily say goodbye to friends and family and not think twice about the next time i would see them. This is not because of a cold heart but out of necessity.
Before I left home for my studies, I knew that i had to put up walls around my emotions and prepare for the worst long before my departure or I would never make that jump. A few years and a few oceans of swims later this tactic seems to have WORN OFF. I find myself getting very sad when people leave and now more than ever i miss people back home. I also miss people I have come to know in my travels in the past and I only wish that somehow i could thank them for all they have done for me.

I had to say goodbye to another good friend a week ago; an elective student from Austria I met when I was on the orthopaedic firm. We've been doing things together with another good friend of mine ever since we first met, having dinner, watching movies not to forget some sightseeing on the weekends. Life was so much fun!
I'd definitely tag the period she was here as being one of those "life at its perks" in my time line. It's so sad that she had to bid us goodbye after 6 weeks and again the same bloody classic "Friends come and go" left its prick until this very moment. I must admit that I can't handle too much emotions at one go, I'd definitely burst in the INSIDE.

I'll not write more on the subject.I learned when i was in Egypt that sadness is like something that will grow inside of you if you let it. It should be recognized, processed and cast away from you otherwise it will consume you. I only want it to be known that i miss and love my friends from all walks of life and such as the cells of my body are transient and ever changing so too i take with me the love my friends have bestowed upon me. I love you guys.